Rants and Raves and Uselessness

Let me tell you something, I hate being yelled at first thing in the morning.  I don't like being yelled at, but first thing in the am just gets my gut in a twist, lets the wind out of my sails and frankly just ruins the whole day.  BUT, I can cope.  UNLESS, the yelling and arguments stop for the whole day, and then right before bed, the yelling starts up again.  Like bish please...  don't ruin my week.

My papa is away with my mother on a spur of the moment seven day cruise.  Legit they planned it last week because it was a "deal of a lifetime" and then left.  I cannot wait for them to come back.  If my papa is not in my day on a daily, I am lost.  I have no one to talk to.  And when the week goes by as shitty as this one has, I need him to talk to.  I need to pick his brain.  I need him to make sense of the things I cannot make sense of.  But he's having fun, and I wish him that, but seriously, he could've picked a better time.

TGIT is back tonight and that is the best part.  Actually that is the ONLY GOOD part. I cant wait to curl on the couch with my babe and be sucked into the Fitz-Liv drama.  Really I cant. I've waited for it for over a month and now that its here, time cannot go by quickly enough.

 I was going to get some pizza and splurge for the festivities, but I am really trying to be good with my weight, so I don't know yet... but probably.  If I can put in a good hour at the gym then definitely.  I've lost 10 pounds since December.  Which isn't a huge deal, but I don't have that much to lose, so to me its glorious.  Although it's hard for me to get excited about it when I have someone constantly whispering "don't get excited, you've still more to lose".  I cant even...

Then there's work.  My work life lately has completely sucked me dry.  I don't know if I'm unhappy and its effecting my relationships, or if that I'm just so super stressed, or if its the people around me who are having issues.  I cant tell, but it's probably me. 

Wish I could just breathe and make things easier.  Wish I wasn't such a novice, that would help too.