Racing thoughts and not so simple ramblings

My mind has been racing.  One hundred miles a minute.  I have yet to make sense of everything.  But that's okay because like everything else that is important to me... I can do this.

My family lost the patriarch of the family this weekend.  I was away at a conference in Baltimore when I heard the news.  My heart was heavy.  Heavy for my mother, who adored this man.  Heavy for my family that I hadn't seen since even before I moved down here.  Just heavy.  Even though there was a sense of emptiness, there was so much more as well. 
I didn't for one second hesitate in going up.  I was almost halfway there for heavens sake.  So I just continued onward up north and kept going until I reached my hometown.  Where I spent 25 years of my life.  Where memories are sweet and bittersweet and just plain bitter. 
Even though I went up for sad reasons, I was overwhelmed by the overall feeling of being blessed.  Blessed because I was once again I was with family.  People who loved me.  People to reminisce and tells stories about the old days.  About the brothers who came overseas with their parents to start a new life in the US.  About my grandfather and his family.  About my mother and hers.  So even though it was not for happy reasons that I had to take a short trip to my hometown, it was a blessing to be there once again.

If there was ever a whirlwind effect in my life, this is the time.  Between Baltimore, and everything I learned, not only about my profession, but about myself and others, and then going back to NY, my mind is stuck in a whirlwind of thoughts.  Unable to process things.  Unsure of whether I really want to, or if I just want to stay right here in this moment and be content with how things are. 

Things can get so messy, so quickly.  I don't want to ruin anything.  I know that being me, I am quick to make things messy.  Quick to dismiss.  Quick to find that one thing, that one thing that will naw and chew and eat at me until I become undone.  I don't want to become undone.  I just want to enjoy. 

So though I want to tell the story about everything that happened in Baltimore, in NY, in VA, I am not ready to put into words.  Not ready to pick apart my thoughts and make them less somehow.

I just want to wait, and be content and enjoy.

But soon.  Soon I will write everything out on paper.  Put words to the story.  Make it more real.

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Yesterday I was in Baltimore. Today I'm in Toga.  Tomorrow I'll be in Richmond.

It's been an absolutely crazy past few days. Crazy not in the sense of psycho, but crazy as in "so out of my norm" kinda thing.

Some of it makes sense to me.  Some doesn't. Some I havent even thought about yet.

When I am sitting in front of my desktop and have access I will try to make sense of it. But for today, for today know this: take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks. -dalai lama

Rocky Mountain High, Colorado

Just a view from the resort. 

Another view from the resort, this one portraying
a different mountain. 

Let me just start off with this...

Colorado was beautiful.  I mean hands down, if I had to go somewhere cold, Colorado is the place to do.  Not Denver though.  Denver is nothing but dirt and factories.  The Rockies is where ya gotta go.  It'll take a little drive.  We drove 2 hours to get to the resort, but it was worth it.  Being so close to so many ski resorts, it was easy for us to catch a shuttle bus or gondola ride and be at the top. 

Not even 20 minutes outside of Denver though and you are riding in the clouds to get where you are going.  It was awesome.  And once you're through you look behind you and all you can see is the white bubbly, pillowy looking mass. 

Then you just keep on driving in amazement.  There were plenty of resorts and mountains closer to Denver to go to, but this one in its quaint little town was perfect.  I wouldn't have done it any differently. 

The resort we stayed at was eight thousand something feet elevation.  When we went to the ski resorts though we were well over fourteen thousand elevation.  Breathing wasn't as difficult as some said it was going to be.  I mean, I went running and I was labored really quickly, but it wasn't something that I couldn't handle, just something that I had to get used to.  When I wasn't active, I was just fine.

It did end up snowing some as you can see in the pics, but they know how to handle it over there.  If we had gotten that much snow here in RVA, schools would've been closed for a month.  Temp was brisk but nothing I would've imagined being in Colorado or at such high elevation.  30's and 40s during the day. 



The quaintness of the town.  I cant even.  

You can hardly see it, but this is when we took off.  The mountains
are in the background peeking through. 

Everything was brick or log.  It was beautiful.  All the snow dusting on the trees made it look like a little Kincaid village. 

Everything was a little expensive, but nothing that I wouldn't expect for the tourist time of year.  We had great food, great company, great time.  If anyone ever wanted to go, I would recommend these places...

Falcon Point Resort 
- where we stayed.  Hot tub while it snowed, free breakfast, free wi-fi, walking distance to anything you need
Route 6 Café and Lounge
-last night of our stay we went here for a beer.  Great live band and awesome dancing from the locals.  Cheap food and beer that's quality
Bob's Place
-if you want to catch a game, go here.  There's probably 40 screens all around the bar.  Sitting is family style, so you'll meet some new people
Pazzo's Pizzeria
-awesome pizza.  The best pizza I've had in a while and I like me some pizza.  We ordered take out for the room and they delivered.