Mental game 1000 and doing things my own way

Sometimes it takes every part of me to remember that not everyone thinks the way I do, does things the way that I do, or feels the way I do. 

As much as I want my "smell good god" to say something, ANYTHING, just because I want him to and because I would does not mean that he will.  I can reach out to him, and get him to say something, but in doing so, in giving in, makes me weak.  I need to step my mental game up times 1000 today. 

My staff.  I am going on vacation in about 3 weeks and I swear I feel like my staff will never be ready.  I don't know if its lack of training, lack of interest, or lack of ambition to do anything , but I swear, they couldn't find their assholes if I wasn't there to tell them where it is.  Is it so hard to think outside the box?  Or not even outside the box, just think "what would Amanda do in this situation?"  that would be WONDERFUL!

I cant say that I am an overly empathic person, but I really try to be good, do good and show good.  I don't know why it's so hard for some people to do the same. 

Sometimes, it's just way easier to do things myself because 1) they'll be done correctly, 2) they'll be done in timely manner and 3) I wont have to check behind someone to make sure that its all done right anyway.  (that very well be the OCD in me, but come on, I am the responsible party if anything goes wrong in the office)

And men are stupid.  If they could just for one minute think: "this is how she would do it" or "this is how she would feel if I did this" and then didnt do it, my life would be easier.